"Purpose"

You know, while listening to the Original Broadway Soundtrack from "Avenue Q", I have established that caw-caw, caw-caw, and tookie-tookie do not work(sorry---no more EVOLUTION).

Seriously, I have been listening to Avenue Q to take away the stress and start relaxing after the test we took in class today. So, in typical fashion, I was just doing my work and next thing I know, the song "Purpose" was playing. I stopped for a moment and actually listened to the words--something I've never really done before. I've always enjoyed the Avenue Q classics--"Everyone's a Little Bit Racist", "The Internet is for Porn", and "What Do You Do With a B.A. in English/It Sucks to Be Me"--but because "Purpose" is a slower song, I've really just let it play in the background. Today was different.

The lyrics are---

"Purpose"
Avenue Q: Original Broadway Soundtrack
Robert Lopez and Jeff Marx, Music and Lyrics
Jeff Whitty, Book

Purpose, it's that little flame,
That lights a fire under your ass.
Purpose, it keeps you going strong
Like a car with a full tank of gas.

Everyone else has a purpose,
So what's mine?
Oh look! Here's a penny!
It's from the year I was born!
It's a sign!

Ba-Ba-Ba-Ba
Doo-doo-doo-doo-doo

I don't know how I know,
But I'm gonna find my purpose.
I don't know where I'm gonna look,
But I'm gonna find my purpose.
Gotta find out, don't wanna wait!
Got to make sure my life will be great!
Gotta find my purpose,
Before it's too late!

I'm gonna find my purpose!
Could be far, could be near,
Could take a week, a month, a year!
At a job, or smoking grass, maybe at a pottery class
Could it be? Yes it could!!!
Something's coming, something good!

I'm gonna find my purpose!
I'm gonna find my purpose!
I'm gonna find it.
What will it be? Where will it be?
My purpose in life is a mystery!
Gotta find my purpose.
Gotta find me.

(some lyrics omitted to save some space)

Listening to these lyrics, and then typing them into my blog, has really floored me today. Everyday, I go to school and I wonder, "What am I doing? Am I meant to do this? What am I supposed to be doing?" But Lopez, Marx, and Whitty had it right. We are all looking for our purpose.

I think I have found my purpose, for I am currently in school for computer programming. Something I never thought I would do in life in a million years; something I thought I would never be good at. But life has ways of throwing little hints to us, and if I never would have hurt my back, I would have never been granted this opportunity to redo my whole career, my whole outlook in life. Going back to school to be a programmer is an opportunity, an opportunity I didn't think I would enjoy.

Today, I cannot imagine doing anything in a career except computer programming. I have found my purpose. Fate caused a back injury that provided the entry into a wonderful new career.

Or actually, it found me.

And for all the stressors we have in life today, remember...

...Everything is only FOR NOW!!! --Avenue Q, "For Now"